Why does life have to be so hard sometimes??

Have you ever had one of those days that you ask yourself why do I do the things that I do? Today was one of those days for me. In the last week I have had the school year end, one girl crush all my ideas of love and I came to the realization that I am going to do the same to another. Why does this always happen to me? I can find girls, just not the ones that work for me. I found a girl that is pretty, funny and treats me great, but I don't feel anything for her. Then there is the other girl who I have known for years, there has always been something between us but we made the decision a long time ago that we could not be together for certain reasons and we have been something more than friends ever since. Well this week she basically revealed to me that she doesn't exactly feel that way about me anymore, there is no one else in her life but its gone now. So here I am, a man whose education has already been reducing his hopeless romantic side in favor of a more logical side, and I have just had the one person who was helping to keep it alive destroy everything that I knew. Truth be told I was a little relieved, but now I also have the feeling of being lost, it is a little like my world has been turned upside down or someone has told me there is no gravity, if I just believe it is not real then it won't be. So here I am, filled with unanswerable questions wondering why. Why does this always happen to me? I realize that this is a character building thing but I don't think I want anymore character. I just want things to go right for once and for my life to make even a tincture of sense. I guess that's too much to ask. You know over the weekend I actually meet a pretty, smart and interesting girl too, but I am to riddled with guilt and trying to find gravity again to do something about it. Life just sucks sometimes.